Although that said, Ren was once capable of seeing what she had done. She apologized to me in PM for something she had done, so that none of her cheerleaders could see it. She was all gushy about it too. That's what threw me off, made me think she was a nice person I guess. Honestly, a lot of shit has been said to me on these sites, and it all slides right off, coz I'm well able for it. I know I'm good at trolling. But it's when Brutus stabs you from behind, that you feel it the most. I had been led to believe that she was reasonable, caring. Then I get pushed away. That's why I hate her so much now.

So maybe the emotion is a weakness thing is just an act, I dunno and who cares. But I do now think it's all about the attention. I had realized that before, and told her that it was my fault for seeing something in her that wasn't there. But I was fooled a second time by her gushy apology. My point is, all three have/had a touch of home about them. Ashley had that hard New York exterior, which at times I found attractive, as I like just a bit of tom boy in my women. But it came with it's own set of problems. I guess everyone (myself included) is a product of their environment. How would you sum up the Albanian temperament, and in your case, how much of it has been influenced by your new home?

"with ugly and average looking men I can control my self" hahaha! :D aww too funny! I never said anything about you having specific sites in mind. I myself was talking about sites such as US, and all the others. I'm a refugee from YT. I loved it so much that it's taken me this long to get it out of my system. Perhaps the worst thing to ever happen to me, was to come across ZippCast when YT closed down their channels. From ZC I eventually migrated to US, and from there I migrated to Metajolt, and eventually wound up here.

Although I did run into Sherrie along the way, and that was a good thing. But that came at the end of another "relationship" I was having with an Irish American girl who joined ZC and US with me. I had met her on YT. At first we had seemed super compatible, but she was a very prickly, staunchly progressive New Yorker, who didn't tolerate much in the way of difference of opinion. She was too inflexible. In a way, I loved her...but not in a way that was workable. Have you ever loved someone who drove you insane? Well that was Ashley for me.

Then I met Sherrie, she's very Californian in my estimation. Very laid back, very much in touch with her emotions. Those are all great qualities. Then take Ren, she's very southern in my books. Staunchly conservative, (which is her prerogative) but bullish and insensitive. Sees emotion as weakness. All three seem to be archetypal stereotypes of the parts of America they come from.

Me too. In fact, I had planned on retiring from US for good, and I did leave. But then we were pushed into lock down and I was pulled back in. I've been bored ever since. I do enjoy listening to music and tinkering with my channel, but I don't see what you could possibly learn from these people Anton. I don't know what you mean.

For whatever reason, the US crowd were always divided into the copy & pasters who had absolutely nothing to say, except weather talk...and the idiot trolls, who had absolutely nothing to say about anything, other than nigger dicks and rim jobs. I really need to get off these fucking sites once and for all, but for the time being I am stuck here. Don't get me wrong, Jacob did a bang up job! It's not the site that's the problem, it's the people. There are some, like yourself, Gus, JP and one or two others who are ok...stimulating enough yes, but it's always very much slim pickings.

I can't figure you and Gus out at all.

so then what would make you happy?

if you could pick your dream life, tell me what it would be like

Yes, i idiot, I told you we decided to end the pregnancy I was only 26 > I wasn't about to marry anyone I was getting ready to finish school and have to work and go to graduate school. Did I told you I'm having a Summer Solstice party?

@GIRLNEXTDOOR#GIRLNEXTDOOR03042021015512 she just died? what happened?

RIP Farrah ❤️

you must not dislike it that must bc wouldn’t you just get yourself a typical guy haircut?

the guy you always put as your bg...do you like his look?

Sounds like my culture. Irishmen are notorious for burying their shit deep down inside. I didn't have insomnia as a kid, or in my 20's...so I wonder why I have it now. I have a couple of ideas, but I can't be certain. Living alone doesn't help. Company is a distraction, without it...one can think WAY too much.

why so augrie. Yelly much? No i don't take T pill they have jells now, I used to have to shot it once a week but ai hated the needle so I move to use it the Jell hence my lavish beautiful beard :) I had at least one unwanted pregnancy that led for me to have the vasectomy , I was too young for kids. It would had cramp my plans for world domination.