what happened to the guy you were in loved w ? he died? I never heard of Santa Muerte till the Cartels became popular. That offering of hummingbirds sound really gruesome. I don't think i care to have anything to do w her. So in NY Ayahuasca is not something that Lstin American people talk about or invoke to transform pain and suffering in to love and hope:. Too bad. I want to bring Ayahuasca to the people . Right now a setting can go for several thousands dollars a night I'm going to San Antonio in July to fo some more and it's costing me 5k for the weekend. but I hear that some can do it for as cheap as $300 a session which is kind of what i want to do. Have you heard of the sacred geometry ? you experience that when you go under Aya

She's pretty cute...I can see how u could even had a crush on her...

yes that is correct. there is a lot psychedelics that people in the Amazon has been using for hundreds of year. Ayahuasca has been in the States for a while but mostly underground. It definitely has a momentum going in texas and S CA now and it has become more accessible in the last few years. It was a game changer for me and gave a great deal of insight in to my recovery and how to deal w my history of sexual abuse and child hood trauma. I think La Santa Muerte is more spiritual base and I hadn't hear of this specific icon till the last 20 years . I not even know when it began. it appear to be a by products of the carterls TBH.

I read the illegals get free healthcare....

Don't feed crevo bull shit about emigrants crossing the border. The emigrants who cross the border in texas snd arizona on their way to CA are essentials to our economy. He is smoking crack believing that anyone gives them welfare . They don't get shit. I have worked w these people. Some may get emergency medical w is marginal but no food stamps or welfare. They relay on the help of churches and other grass roots agencies.

Do u get free healthcare?...

Lotsa welfare recipients coming over the border...

R there many doctors n scientists coming across the open sthn border?...

Have you ever heard of Ayahuasca... it scans your body for trauma even generalizional trauma. I will be training in San Antonio for the next 2 years to become a practitioner. I too tried to help Crank but he is too sick and doesn't want to see the light. I haven't totally giving up on him but I'm afraid he may be far gone and no matter how much I try to help it's not going to work.

yeah. I have to come clean. I know I'm a big ol faggot. I totally need to own that. I'm still recovering from the last 2 years of partying and doping myself. I know that I'm no good for anyone right now, whether it was a man or a woman. I don't see myself being w a woman again. I feel like I'm done with that. It just didn't worked out and I want to be w a man. But that in my brain doesn't registered as in having sex w a man. Of course i say a lot of shit and I objectify every man here. But when it comes to it I doubt i could perform sexually w another man unless i really had love feelings for him. I need that love feeling and connectedness w a guy and then if sex happens it happens. Now I know that feeling only last a little bit but I must have it . I must be loved bomb. I don't know where that comes from and how it all began. Maybe It would change once I continue to heal and do more Ayahuasca. It sounds toxic AF.