I'm in recovery from drugs jajajaja so I have to keep shit pretty light. Even when it comes to sex I need to stay away from the intense spectrum of sexuality because then It would be easier to start messing w drugs again. So I'm not sure what this is going to look like yet. I'm hoping I can meet another weird tree hugger Ayahuasca dude who can be as much of a freak as I can be. But I still don't know what that would look like. Anyway, I told myself I would give myself 5 months to a year before I even consider having sex w another guy. That being said I wouldn't mind flying to Denmark and fucking the hell out off blondie. I'm cool w that cause I have known him for like 10 years and he wants to be my bitch.

So it's that they type of guy that turns you on>. I mean I get it. Hot AF. An amazing ass body and face. I imagine that he is probably like 5'10 and he just looks big in the pic or maybe not. I never really picture myself having sex w anyone that would look like that. It's not part of my consciousness. If he was on his 4's I would totally fuck him. 2. 5 years ago i almost had sex w a hot white guy and his girlfriend who turned out to be transgender. Some guys really enjoy transgender females , I just wasn't in to it.

I think fucking is going to be way too intense for me. Yeah. I think i rather just get punch in the guts than being fucked.. I associate gay sex w violence. I also have a lot of internalized homophobia that I must shine some light in to. I mostly enjoy getting attention from other guys. whatever it takes. Just keeping it real. I have to heal from all that shit.

It's very strange , how women interact w me now when I tell them I want to. be w a guy and that I'm a homo. They get so fuckng passive aggresive at me if not outright hostile. I feel like I don't have to tolerate that. I'm a grown ass man and I don't have to explain myself to anyone. That Sierra woman, was a fucking mess. She deserves all the cussing i threw on her direction .

Damn. That's so hot it hurts to even look at . sigh. I'm saving myself for Jake, thought. I want to rape him and then heal him from the rape by loving him. Yeah! don't judge me.

Hey Sierra said she was going to report me to the place I used to work. how lame is that? huh?

No worries about the late reply I was able to manage and obviously i consider you a friend of some sort if I remember some tidbits of your life that you share or something like that...

Speaking of A.I. it's kinda funny because they are actually thinking of replacing Hollywood writers with A.I. how hilariously cruel would that be?...huH...

Hope you have been maintaining on the good side

Hows the café been hopefully not bland

Are you a psychoanalyst